i went to a going-away party for a friend tonight at a karaoke bar, the button's friend. she is moving to Colorado soon. i got two songs in, 'don't you forget about me' by simple minds. and the other was 'the dance' by garth brooks. the latter one i had been sitting on for a while, wanting to wait until a friend could hear it. since i recall being at my cousin's wedding in 2015 and froze, couldn't dance to it. as it reminded me of the late bill young. but it was no big deal doing the song, i could feel some tingling in my body at the start of it but it went well. it was a song i sang with passion. the button said it sounded fine, so i liked hearing that. sometimes you need to hear it from others, it can mean more when we call be our own worst critic.
naturally my first mission was trying to find people i knew. i went out to the smoking area in the back, and i found the button there. we spoke a little about the show i performed at earlier tonight. it took a little while longer to find the guest of honor, no surprise there since she would be 'in demand' with all of her friends. but we hugged and i got to see her sing, and she wanted to do a photo or video of all of us at one point in the night while she was on the stage. since i don't see the button all too often i made the most of my chance to discuss various things with her. there was an announcement about a car that needed to be moved, i said 'good, it's not mine' and i said what mine was and she said her dad had a car like that for a while. and since it is a karaoke venue it made sense that we talked about music some. when i spoke of leonard Cohen's 'hallelujah' being part of a show i did over the weekend, she said it was a song she performed at her grandma's funeral. this of course reminded me of how sharing memories of my grandma at her funeral was one of the things that gave me the confidence to try performing. when i know how others have performed at their family events, i will have to consider doing the same at my family's events. especially if it is easier for me to get through it. and a song like this one is a good idea. another song we discussed was 'blinded by the light' and i said i knew bruce springsteen wrote it but i had only heard the version by Manfred mann's earth band. so i will have to find the original version on YouTube. i said the song was in 'running with scissors' and what the movie meant to me, how a lot of pain left me after seeing it. she said others said the same after seeing the movie. so i like knowing i am not alone on that one.
this is more evidence of how performing has changed me, for the better. it has given me a circle of friends, so it means something to me when they have going-away parties as i know i should be there and i am thankful i made it as there are so many people i like seeing there. i even said so to the guest of honor. i know it was at the earlier show where i said to Stillwater, who was filling in for the normal MC, the 'extra murder' comic, how i was stiff when i started doing stand-up. but i know i am way more loose than i was. I said i am in the wrong place if i can't take a joke. where i know the best game plan is have a snappy comeback, and i usually have one. i like how i am no longer hung up on how long it took me to be ready for all that goes with performing. my aunt, the ordained minister in Wisconsin, i know said 'when you're ready' about other things in my life. it feels good to find a place where i belong. sure i miss people when they move away, but that is fine, it is normal. i might have said some of this before, but this is still how i feel. also liked seeing the wolf's lady there, and she said 'he says hello' since i said i would make it when i can as there was a facebook invite for it. so i understood why this message was forwarded to me.
naturally one takes the good with the bad. there was a man that i found to be annoying fairly quickly, so i just decided to stay away from him. i said i don't want to talk about comedy all the time, and his jokes weren't funny at all. i like using the 'quarter candy vending machine' there but nothing came out this time. not much left in the selection i made i guess. so i will allow for it when i try it again. but these two things were minor, all in all i loved being there. and i would like to think that others liked seeing me there just as much as i liked seeing them. so who cares if i took a night off from my normal performance venue? worth it! i say this line more often now when i know something is 'worth it'.
after the party i drove home and in the rush to get inside i felt one of my shoes get stuck in the snow. so of course i had to go back for it. and it felt weird to have some snow in the shoe after that. so i knew i needed to shake it out, after i got inside, as i didn't want snow melting inside of my shoe. i am aware how it would have felt weirder had i been without a shoe on one of my feet though, any longer than i was anyway. i had to jump over some snow to get from the sidewalk to the street, and this is why it happened as it was piled kind of high. the snow must have been soft enough where i went through where i would go inside the snow and not stay on top of it.
i performed at an open-mic as the 'lid-lifter' tonight, and since it is near the Vikings stadium i am seeing some of the prep work for the super bowl happening of course. once i got my car out of the ramp this afternoon, i drove to a job fair but not much available in my skill set as it was airport jobs. it was still something to do, and i wanted to get somewhere today after going nowhere the previous day. one can suffer from 'cabin fever' often in the winter.
naturally my first mission was trying to find people i knew. i went out to the smoking area in the back, and i found the button there. we spoke a little about the show i performed at earlier tonight. it took a little while longer to find the guest of honor, no surprise there since she would be 'in demand' with all of her friends. but we hugged and i got to see her sing, and she wanted to do a photo or video of all of us at one point in the night while she was on the stage. since i don't see the button all too often i made the most of my chance to discuss various things with her. there was an announcement about a car that needed to be moved, i said 'good, it's not mine' and i said what mine was and she said her dad had a car like that for a while. and since it is a karaoke venue it made sense that we talked about music some. when i spoke of leonard Cohen's 'hallelujah' being part of a show i did over the weekend, she said it was a song she performed at her grandma's funeral. this of course reminded me of how sharing memories of my grandma at her funeral was one of the things that gave me the confidence to try performing. when i know how others have performed at their family events, i will have to consider doing the same at my family's events. especially if it is easier for me to get through it. and a song like this one is a good idea. another song we discussed was 'blinded by the light' and i said i knew bruce springsteen wrote it but i had only heard the version by Manfred mann's earth band. so i will have to find the original version on YouTube. i said the song was in 'running with scissors' and what the movie meant to me, how a lot of pain left me after seeing it. she said others said the same after seeing the movie. so i like knowing i am not alone on that one.
this is more evidence of how performing has changed me, for the better. it has given me a circle of friends, so it means something to me when they have going-away parties as i know i should be there and i am thankful i made it as there are so many people i like seeing there. i even said so to the guest of honor. i know it was at the earlier show where i said to Stillwater, who was filling in for the normal MC, the 'extra murder' comic, how i was stiff when i started doing stand-up. but i know i am way more loose than i was. I said i am in the wrong place if i can't take a joke. where i know the best game plan is have a snappy comeback, and i usually have one. i like how i am no longer hung up on how long it took me to be ready for all that goes with performing. my aunt, the ordained minister in Wisconsin, i know said 'when you're ready' about other things in my life. it feels good to find a place where i belong. sure i miss people when they move away, but that is fine, it is normal. i might have said some of this before, but this is still how i feel. also liked seeing the wolf's lady there, and she said 'he says hello' since i said i would make it when i can as there was a facebook invite for it. so i understood why this message was forwarded to me.
naturally one takes the good with the bad. there was a man that i found to be annoying fairly quickly, so i just decided to stay away from him. i said i don't want to talk about comedy all the time, and his jokes weren't funny at all. i like using the 'quarter candy vending machine' there but nothing came out this time. not much left in the selection i made i guess. so i will allow for it when i try it again. but these two things were minor, all in all i loved being there. and i would like to think that others liked seeing me there just as much as i liked seeing them. so who cares if i took a night off from my normal performance venue? worth it! i say this line more often now when i know something is 'worth it'.
after the party i drove home and in the rush to get inside i felt one of my shoes get stuck in the snow. so of course i had to go back for it. and it felt weird to have some snow in the shoe after that. so i knew i needed to shake it out, after i got inside, as i didn't want snow melting inside of my shoe. i am aware how it would have felt weirder had i been without a shoe on one of my feet though, any longer than i was anyway. i had to jump over some snow to get from the sidewalk to the street, and this is why it happened as it was piled kind of high. the snow must have been soft enough where i went through where i would go inside the snow and not stay on top of it.
i performed at an open-mic as the 'lid-lifter' tonight, and since it is near the Vikings stadium i am seeing some of the prep work for the super bowl happening of course. once i got my car out of the ramp this afternoon, i drove to a job fair but not much available in my skill set as it was airport jobs. it was still something to do, and i wanted to get somewhere today after going nowhere the previous day. one can suffer from 'cabin fever' often in the winter.
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